*sigh*
I dont like talking about my homeland on the internet (
especially on the gaming tred where we all supposed enjoy games, eat grass & leave in peace
) because it very difficult to explain foreigner how people live in somelike Donetsk/Luhansk People Republic......
....... but if you like to remember my home, well, so be it. I can add umm.....local expert opinion:
how "funny" live with knowlege that you can "dissapear" for a pro-ukranian views, using ukrainan language or music, fading of learning ukrainian language, destroying of Donetsk industry, lack of international bank systems, University "cardboard" diplomas that have no weight anywhere except Russia and i just beginning of a long crap list. (Oh, how could I forget about forced mobilization, when you can be caught on the street and sent to certain death for nothing

)
8 years.... eihgt yaeahs, eeeih ieaaeis
It's funny to see how people who ignored your existence for these 8 years suddenly remembered you and then only for their own self-protective purposes. I remember that. I remember the gradual impoverishment of my city, how my friends left here at the age of 10, I remember how in 2014 we left for Berdyansk, I remember how we lived in a barracks and how my mother cried because she lost her job.
*deep sigh*
I donāt argue, I myself, out of youthful stupidity, supported this crap: I bought ribbons with the flag of the "republic", drew symbols, and I remember even telling my mother that I regret that I was Ukrainian. To which my mother told me that
you can deny and hate your origin, but this will not stop you from being one! Maybe this was the starting point in my thinking for all 180 degrees....
It is very sad of course to watch how you move away from your parents because of the different vision of the future in your "sinking ship". At first, things didnāt work out with dad because he was a washed out āpatriotā, then a few years later, relations with mom became ācoldā.
This year I entered the university as a programmer. It was interesting, then quarantine began after which I generally stopped understanding what was happening. Somehow study turned into torture, you begin to sink into the material and realize your worthlessness more than you learn anything. After that there was a session that I was halfway through, we went out for 2 weeks to learn, quarantine again and then bam - a "surprise" on February 24th.
Every day I wake up reluctant to continue my meaningless life in this imitation of life and continue my existence without hope for the best.
Why develop, learn, maintain tone, develop if you do not feel the joy of hobbies or any sense.
I donāt promote hatred, donāt insult any nation, donāt doubt your patriotic feelings or how the hell a special operation or war is spelled correctly (and yes, if at first it seemed like a joke to me, then after the words ala 8 years - it doesnāt seem so to me) I note that I havenāt heard such discussions about bad Russians in this thread (on gog they discuss about it much harder).
You are a good dude, smart and a good gamer, so let's be friends and hobby colleagues.
Have a nice day!